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Mar. 31st, 2010 11:16 pmHaving a ridiculous moment of tearyness because the kid I worked with for a year and a half got permanently excluded and the boy he always hangs out with said to me - in his odd broken English - that kid says hi and hopes I am okay.
;_;
I know they wanted him out even before I got there, and I worked hard to get him this far, but I just worry that he won't get enough time to settle into his new TA before it's time for him to leave school, and he had potential, y'know? He's a charming kid that I managed to persuade from 'selling women' as a career plan through 'mechanics' to a hesitant but heartfelt enthusiasm about being a taxi driver, about how he'd have a really nice car and keep it really clean so people wanted him to drive them.
I hate that he left school without me getting a chance to say goodbye, and I hate that I'm not gonna know what happens to him, most likely, since I hope to be moving towns in June.
I'll grow out of this kind of attachment, no doubt, but this is the first job that - through the frustration and the occasionally god-awful days - I genuinely loved.
I have my fingers crossed so hard for him.
;_;
I know they wanted him out even before I got there, and I worked hard to get him this far, but I just worry that he won't get enough time to settle into his new TA before it's time for him to leave school, and he had potential, y'know? He's a charming kid that I managed to persuade from 'selling women' as a career plan through 'mechanics' to a hesitant but heartfelt enthusiasm about being a taxi driver, about how he'd have a really nice car and keep it really clean so people wanted him to drive them.
I hate that he left school without me getting a chance to say goodbye, and I hate that I'm not gonna know what happens to him, most likely, since I hope to be moving towns in June.
I'll grow out of this kind of attachment, no doubt, but this is the first job that - through the frustration and the occasionally god-awful days - I genuinely loved.
I have my fingers crossed so hard for him.
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Date: 2010-03-31 10:52 pm (UTC)He'll remember you, I promise.
And, moving towns? Where too? *is excited*
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Date: 2010-03-31 11:09 pm (UTC)Also, I agree with the above; he'll remember you forever. I remember the teachers who believed in me.
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Date: 2010-03-31 11:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-04-01 12:31 am (UTC)I agree with everyone else - he'll remember you, for sure. A teacher that really changes your life like you did for him, and encouraged him, that's not something he'll forget anytime soon. *hugs you*
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Date: 2010-04-01 02:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-04-01 07:13 am (UTC)I think being impassioned and caring is an incredibly important part of being a teacher. The kids know if you're faking enthusiasm. Perhaps your attachments will be lessened because they'll be spread over more children rather than the focus you've had on one due to the nature of your job, but I really hope you don't grow out of it. It's why he let you in. Sucks UNBELIEVABLY when it ends/goes wrong, but that's part of the deal.
*hugs and hugs*
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Date: 2010-04-01 10:31 am (UTC)