nny | (no subject)

re: job interview - if you expect me to go through three interviews and a half hour lesson in order to work at your school, I expect you to return my phone calls - that you specifically advised I make - in order to tell me how many kids are in the class and what resources are available and whether I need to provide differentiated resources. Because otherwise I have to prepare at least two separate lessons at different technology levels, and manage a huge amount of worksheets most of which may be redundant.

Thing is, the more teaching interviews I go to, the more I start to think this stress is deliberate, in order to see how well I cope with it. Ref: the job interview at which I was only told more than a day in advance because of how far I had to travel, and was deliberately given as little information as possible about the class I had to teach.

Please note: you are not just fucking with me and my ability to teach, you are fucking with the kids and their ability to learn; I detest the idea that they will feel stupid and/or learn nothing because you refused to let me know what levels they're working at, and I detest the idea that I might leave out a small group of students because I didn't know to provide differentiated worksheets. I know it's only a half hour interview lesson, but why screw with that opportunity for them to learn?

Oh, and for the record? I don't deal that well with stress. It's something I'm learning, along with learning how to be a teacher, and forgive me if I'm cynical about precisely how supportive you're going to be with that.

In other news I'm currently sleeping about 8 hours a night - where I average 6 usually - and am a total fucking zombie. Came home from work today and crashed out for maybe an hour and a half, and I'm ready for bed again already. Sleep is beginning to take precedence over anything else - including meals - and there doesn't seem to be a single way I can get enough of it.

I don't think this is a particularly positive sign.