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Aug. 7th, 2014 06:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI had a massive hit of nostalgia this morning, and thinking back through the happiest times in my life something struck me. Each of those times was in the second year or later of being somewhere. The only exceptions to this were times at University, when everyone is in the same position and the social dance is naturally condensed. I've noticed before that it takes me a year to settle somewhere properly, but I hadn't really processed the logical conclusions that come with that re: social stuff.
With that came a few other attached thoughts. That this might explain my difficulty in finding any sort of social life or relationship, as I haven't lived in one place for more than a year since 2006 (since even when I was working the same place two years in a row I moved towns midway in both jobs). That (possibly) this means I am slightly less repellent, just slow to trust. That in fact not constantly moving house is something I need to stop for my own wellbeing as well as preference.
Why is this important now? Because I've just moved again, and my landlord has gone home to his parents' house so I'm left somewhere that is both empty of people I know and a commuter town, meaning that there is very little accessible without a car. I am very very far away from everyone I love.
So those of you who have communicated with me over the past week, that's why I've been so horribly self involved and depressed, and I apologise for that. It's made worse because this living situation (and my upcoming job situation) is very much about necessity rather than choice.
My new address is here - message me if you can't see it and want it - and I would really appreciate a postcard/letter if you've a mo? I'm trying to focus myself and do better, but it's kind of an uphill struggle at the moment.
With that came a few other attached thoughts. That this might explain my difficulty in finding any sort of social life or relationship, as I haven't lived in one place for more than a year since 2006 (since even when I was working the same place two years in a row I moved towns midway in both jobs). That (possibly) this means I am slightly less repellent, just slow to trust. That in fact not constantly moving house is something I need to stop for my own wellbeing as well as preference.
Why is this important now? Because I've just moved again, and my landlord has gone home to his parents' house so I'm left somewhere that is both empty of people I know and a commuter town, meaning that there is very little accessible without a car. I am very very far away from everyone I love.
So those of you who have communicated with me over the past week, that's why I've been so horribly self involved and depressed, and I apologise for that. It's made worse because this living situation (and my upcoming job situation) is very much about necessity rather than choice.
My new address is here - message me if you can't see it and want it - and I would really appreciate a postcard/letter if you've a mo? I'm trying to focus myself and do better, but it's kind of an uphill struggle at the moment.
