nny | May. 7th, 2008

Man, bigness of so much ow right now. I had this weird, like, full body flinch every five minutes or so last night - which was bizarre, enormously comical and resulted in my laptop shooting off my lap repeatedly - and it's left me with incredibly knotted back muscles. I wish I lived closer to people who were willing to touch me, so I could beg prettily for some kind of back rub. Although, that said, people touching me is kind of a weird 'only on my terms' area for me, and last time I got a massage from a friend it made me tense up to the point that she bruised me. Oops? Are there any self help remedies, here? I'm thinking possibly application of heat would help, but it's ridiculously warm here today and I'd probably melt into a small puddle and drip down the side of the bed. And it's probably grimy down there. My housework skills may be judged by the fact that when there's a through-draft in my room it snows little dust bunnies from the top of the wardrobe.

Today has been spent going to the doctor and - sleeping, actually. The flinch was like... you know that thing where you're on the verge of falling asleep and you jerk yourself awake? It was like that, so obviously the sleep I got was not of good quality, and the dreams I had were exhausting too. The amount of work that this has again left me with is making me tense up further. What's actually the worst thing is the problems I'm having prioritising, right now. I know I should take it one thing at a time, but I can't seem to work out which one thing should come first.

I should be alright so long as I can make it to the weekend. And that's totally doable, right?