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I got a bit disheartened on one of my stories yesterday and had something of a self-pity fest; my brain responded by squishing ideas for one of my other stories into my head until they were spilling out of my ears. Made it difficult to sleep, because every time I was nearly dropping off I had to grab a pencil and write something else down. Eventually got to the point where I wasn't even turning on the light, just scribbling with my eyes still mostly closed, so whether I can decipher the notes or not is the big question. XD

It's reassuring, anyway. I like it.

Oh, and my brain is not being subtle again; last night I dreamed about buying a ridiculous piece of furniture for a frankly extortionate amount of money from a charity shop, so I couldn't even take it back. Yes, brain. I am aware I'm spending too much on whims right now. I'll work on it, okay?

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There's a new opportunity that's come up at work, for more money and more responsibility, and I've decided not to go for it. It suits one of my colleague's work plans far more and I really don't want to get in the way of that just because technically I'm more qualified; not that I'm assuming I'd get it, just that it's not where I want to be. Also there's the more work/responsibility angle - to be honest I think I'd rather stick with what I have at the moment and be able to work more on internalising all the stuff I learned last year for the teaching qualification and to work on the problems I have with self-esteem. It also leaves me more free to apply for teaching jobs that might come up, which is a definite bonus. I think I might talk all this over with my boss tomorrow, though, purely so she gets an idea of why I'm not going for the job; I don't want her thinking I'm not invested in the school, or diverting responsibilities away from me, y'know?

Totally still making the demandingly grabby hands that ought to go under my icon at the money, though. :)

Guys who got in line for tarot readings, in case you don't have notifications on, I left a message for you in that post, by the way.

I'm gonna go sing a song about the easter holidays now, and about how much I wish they'd frickin' ARRIVE ALREADY.