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Couch to 5k continues, although without the couch to 5k part since I am at a gross menstrual point and felt like crap. Therefore it was 4 minutes on a rowing machine, 10 minutes walking at a steep incline, 10 minutes rolling hills on the bike and then weights. This is not, I have decided, failure, but instead self care. Yup.

If anyone is bothered/bored by fitness talk, btw, please let me know and I'll put it under a cut.

I have now applied for three different jobs at the university library and a pub job, I'll look for more later; other plan of the day is to go and get my loan form stamped so I can actually secure funding for this course. Lalala I have been putting it off because if I don't send it they can't say no! ahaha I am an adult. Also possibly I will be watching Stargate: Atlantis, since Cat reminded me of John Sheppard's hopeless freakin' face and now I am pining as none has pined before, dammit.

But first a shower for the hopelessly and grotesquely sweaty among us. :D

Thank you

So I'm doing this thing, this creativity thing, that involves exercises and tasks and self analysis and writing writing so much writing, because I have found that I am so much better at achievements if I don't give myself an escape route and I have a framework to work within. I am developing enough self-discipline to stick to discipline by others, and that's a step forward even if it's not where I want to be.

One of the tasks for this week is to look back at when I have felt good about myself creatively and who caused it, and when I have felt bad about myself creatively and who caused it.

The weight that I have put on the negative comments is absurd, considering how very very few of them there have been; the positive comments are difficult to tally and record and count because you guys have been a wellspring of endless compliments and comments and supportive statements and flattery and love, and it is bloody incredible thinking back over it all.

I am so, so grateful for any time you have said anything nice about my writing, anything at all. I am grateful to anyone who's put up with my rubbish return rate to request a ficlet because they like what I write. I am grateful for feedback on fics, and bolstering when I was down, and comments out of the blue just because you were thinking of me.

I am so lucky to have you guys. Thank you.