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[nny]

My resolution this next year is (apart from working on my writing, which is pretty much a permanent fixture and, as such, gets very little notice taken) to work on my organisational skills.

You'd think, what with having got GCSEs, A-levels, a bloody degree, that I might have sorted this out by now. I really should have done, because I'm not unintelligent, and I could have got much better marks than I came away with. Disliking my degree subject didn't help an awful lot, obviously, but the decision to stick with it was mine.

Fact is, I drift through life, and I let things pass me by. On the brutal honesty meme, someone said they thought I was lazy. That was pretty much the worst thing said about me, for which I am grateful, but it stung a little precisely because it's so true. My life would be a hell of a lot smoother if I took the time to work at it a little.

I've ordered a bookcase, which'll mean I can sort out my room, something I've not been able to do for a little while because I literally do not have the space for the amount of stuff I have; then I can sort out packages for those as are owed them, and work out what I have, what I need, and what I can sell on Ebay.

Tomorrow I'm going to go to Woolies and purchase a diary, and I am going to do my damndest to use it. I am going to make a note of everything I've said I'll do, and of peoples' birthdays, and attempt to learn to live life like a normal grown-up person does. Because the way I am, I realise, is kind of a burden on the people around me.

So this is an apology, kids. If I've pissed you off with my scattiness, which I think is completely understandable, I really am very sorry. And I ask that you bear with me while I attempt to sort it out. Because it's not going to be an overnight process, much as I wish it could be. Because I'm lazy. *grins*



Hunh. Examining personality flaws and attempting to sort out how I can work on them. Does this make me a grown up?

Comments

[dopplegl.livejournal.com]

I think what most makes you an adult (though as you are older than me and have had much more life experience), so I could be wrong) is that you have seen what your flaws are and admitted that they bother you and are taking steps to work on them. I also think because you realize it will not be an overnight process, that too shows you have grown as well.

But then again, I may have no idea what I'm talking about.

*hugs*