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May. 9th, 2006 06:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyMy coping strategies are so screwed. HAHAHAHAHA!
I seem to be pissing people off at the moment and I don't know how, or if it's actually me pissing them off or just me being paranoid, or what. URGH. I am avoiding everyone, though, which is SUCH A HEALTHY WAY OF DEALING. I am scared that if I say anything to anyone I will make them angry with me, so instead I hide from them which is so good for the developing of personal relationships. Bugger it all.
For the record, prompted by another post on my f-list... I don't IM people. I'm shit at talking, it's a thing. In group chats I can just sit and interject at random when I have something to say, and let other people be all intelligent and erudite and amusing in my stead. When it's a one on one chat I have to actually entertain, and it scares me, and I clam up. This means I don't want to burden people with a ping from me, in general, and therefore only ping people when I need to ask them a question or a favour. Which makes me look like a ruthlessly self-serving bitch, which really I'm not, I swear. And making this post unfortunately does not mean I will be pinging you and having amazing conversations, or necessarily being any better at talking when you ping me. I'm just saying that seriously? It's not just you. I do this to everyone. I'm crap.
Work is tiring. It's training and envelope stuffing at the moment, and it takes me about an hour each way to get there, and it's decent people and random chats which is great, just I'm braindead. Which is annoying because I have major original fic ideas trying to camp out in my head. *grabby hands*
And one girl at work was talking about how she wants to get married because then she can have kids and her boyfriend won't walk out on her, and how she just wants security and doesn't really care that they have major problems all the time and frequently split up because it's important to her that she have kids before she's thirty. Seriously, I despair. I really do. I don't see marriage as a necessary thing. I am determined not to settle for someone. If I don't find someone who I want to spend the rest of my life with, fuck it. I'm gonna buy snakes and scare local children.
On a completely unrelated note, I've been pottering about in my friend's bookcase, and she has various astrology books and stuff, and I find it interesting that my chinese sign things seem to make way more sense than the Saggitarius stuff... although that said, I can't seem to find all that much about Saggitarius. Plus, I know nothing about whether I have a bad moon rising, or whatever. Anyone know anything about it? Decent websites I can look at? Just vaguely curious.
Apparently Captain Swan, a buccaneer in the 17th century, had an astrologer as part of his crew. Random, huh? William Dampier is my hero. I fangirl madly.
(Pirates win. Pirates so win).
I seem to be pissing people off at the moment and I don't know how, or if it's actually me pissing them off or just me being paranoid, or what. URGH. I am avoiding everyone, though, which is SUCH A HEALTHY WAY OF DEALING. I am scared that if I say anything to anyone I will make them angry with me, so instead I hide from them which is so good for the developing of personal relationships. Bugger it all.
For the record, prompted by another post on my f-list... I don't IM people. I'm shit at talking, it's a thing. In group chats I can just sit and interject at random when I have something to say, and let other people be all intelligent and erudite and amusing in my stead. When it's a one on one chat I have to actually entertain, and it scares me, and I clam up. This means I don't want to burden people with a ping from me, in general, and therefore only ping people when I need to ask them a question or a favour. Which makes me look like a ruthlessly self-serving bitch, which really I'm not, I swear. And making this post unfortunately does not mean I will be pinging you and having amazing conversations, or necessarily being any better at talking when you ping me. I'm just saying that seriously? It's not just you. I do this to everyone. I'm crap.
Work is tiring. It's training and envelope stuffing at the moment, and it takes me about an hour each way to get there, and it's decent people and random chats which is great, just I'm braindead. Which is annoying because I have major original fic ideas trying to camp out in my head. *grabby hands*
And one girl at work was talking about how she wants to get married because then she can have kids and her boyfriend won't walk out on her, and how she just wants security and doesn't really care that they have major problems all the time and frequently split up because it's important to her that she have kids before she's thirty. Seriously, I despair. I really do. I don't see marriage as a necessary thing. I am determined not to settle for someone. If I don't find someone who I want to spend the rest of my life with, fuck it. I'm gonna buy snakes and scare local children.
On a completely unrelated note, I've been pottering about in my friend's bookcase, and she has various astrology books and stuff, and I find it interesting that my chinese sign things seem to make way more sense than the Saggitarius stuff... although that said, I can't seem to find all that much about Saggitarius. Plus, I know nothing about whether I have a bad moon rising, or whatever. Anyone know anything about it? Decent websites I can look at? Just vaguely curious.
Apparently Captain Swan, a buccaneer in the 17th century, had an astrologer as part of his crew. Random, huh? William Dampier is my hero. I fangirl madly.
(Pirates win. Pirates so win).
