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England is not prepared for heat. I melt.

I have a few things I want to say, and I can't remember what most of them are, so I will attempt to cover what I remember and apologise in advance for the disconnectedness.

Re: Millicon. I want to apologise to all the people I didn't get around to talking to, and all the people that I deliberately avoided. Yes, there were people. I already spoke to one of them about it, cursing my thrice-damned shyness, but there were people at the con I would really have loved to have spent more time with only I was intimidated just about as much in RL as I am online. There are people I consider friends, see, people I love to bits that I wouldn't dream of talking to outside of a group-chat because I'm terrified. And as much as I tried to not let that affect me, it really really did. So if you think I was disdaining you in any way? Most probably not.

*sighs*

(Dear person over the road: If your windows are open, I can see you. PLEASE MORE CLOTHES PLEASE.)

I've seen a couple of posts on my f-list about race/colour and it's one of those issues I don't weigh in on. I don't weigh in on a whole hell of a lot, to be honest, since I'm a coward and am incapable of arguing any point in a coherent or intelligent manner, but I find that anything to do with race/colour sex/gender is more difficult than most. The areas are so linguistically ill-defined that you can spend three hours arguing with someone before you realise that you're using different words to try and illustrate the same point. They're areas in which language and wording is so very touchy a thing that it becomes difficult to even think about the issues and work out where you stand for fear of using the wrong phrase and alienating someone. Words Are Important, and they shape our thoughts, and that's why I find them so fascinating. Inability to relate to something can totally be down to inability to describe it, inability to frame it according to our personal experience due to not having the language to do so. When words are such a sore point and so central to an issue, and when words are interpreted differently by every participant, it's even more difficult than usual to say anything I mean. So I don't.

To Do List:

~~Email Tauntons College~~
Sort out library card
Write to Specsavers
Change address at bank and get statement sent
Look for Room With a View for mum
Buy sister a card

I'm reading Jane Austen at the moment. No idea why. Yesterday my day consisted of unpacking holiday stuff, unpacking from my move and reading Persuasion. Today it's everything laid out above and Sense and Sensibility. Yes, again. I'm in the mood for happy endings, I think.

BLeeeeeurgh I'm so hot.

Also, random flinging of love in the direction of