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Mar. 15th, 2007 05:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI'm hurting like a bastard today.
It's not the dull ache that drains me of all energy and ability to think. That depresses me and makes me feel like I'm not good enough because if only I was trying a little harder and putting up with a little more I could work without bursting into tears too often. That makes me worry that it's not bad enough, that I'm convincing myself into it or upsetting myself over nothing.
Nope. Today I have sharp pain in my joints and bones that's making me swear and flinch and it's something I can grit my teeth against and get angry at.
I'm hurting like a bastard today, and I'm feeling pretty good.
It's not the dull ache that drains me of all energy and ability to think. That depresses me and makes me feel like I'm not good enough because if only I was trying a little harder and putting up with a little more I could work without bursting into tears too often. That makes me worry that it's not bad enough, that I'm convincing myself into it or upsetting myself over nothing.
Nope. Today I have sharp pain in my joints and bones that's making me swear and flinch and it's something I can grit my teeth against and get angry at.
I'm hurting like a bastard today, and I'm feeling pretty good.
