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Nov. 29th, 2007 05:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyNot, admittedly, my best day ever. I had a bad first lesson and then had to excuse myself from the second lesson - which I was only observing, thank everthing - in order to go and attempt to cry silently in the toilets. I kind of got myself under control, only to fall apart again at break time when my mentor said she wanted a word at lunchtime. I scuttled off to the toilet again and then she cornered me, gave me a big hug and allowed me to soak her shoulder.
I've talked it through with her and she's told me I need to limit the time I spend planning lessons, I need to take some time off occasionally and I need to make sure I have all the basics down before I start taking on too much. Also that I need to focus more on the big picture rather than the details of the lesson, because I get too bogged down in the timings and forget what the point is.
I feel like I've failed, kinda, since I'm taking a big step backwards, but I really need to make sure my footing's solid there before I try to build on it. I dunno. I feel disappointed in myself but they told me that I'm doing okay and everyone's been really reassuring. I just really don't want to fuck this up and learn it too slow.
:/
I've talked it through with her and she's told me I need to limit the time I spend planning lessons, I need to take some time off occasionally and I need to make sure I have all the basics down before I start taking on too much. Also that I need to focus more on the big picture rather than the details of the lesson, because I get too bogged down in the timings and forget what the point is.
I feel like I've failed, kinda, since I'm taking a big step backwards, but I really need to make sure my footing's solid there before I try to build on it. I dunno. I feel disappointed in myself but they told me that I'm doing okay and everyone's been really reassuring. I just really don't want to fuck this up and learn it too slow.
:/
