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Dec. 19th, 2007 09:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI used to write really bad Mulder/Krycek, back in the day. Ages ago, this was, writing my first fanfic about ten years ago actually. It created this whole different fannish experience that I'd never had with any show before that, see, but it wasn't from the beginning of the show that I saw it. I mean, I never watched the show in order, I wasn't allowed to stay up late enough after Girl Guides to watch the first couple of seasons, so Krycek was pretty early on in the fandom experience for me, but I didn't write fanfic before I knew what fanfic was as so many of these stories seem to go. I wrote original stories before I found out about fanfic, and they were hideous and cliché ridden and frequently ended up with it all having been a dream, which is I guess another version of the Mary Sue thing. Something that we do because we don't know how to do any better. I never wrote Mary Sues because I didn't like myself, and a lot of the attraction of slash was that I couldn't project myself into the story in any real way, which is an unhealthy reaction obviously and has totally changed over time. It's not why I'm in slash any more and that's good, because I'd hate to lose the hot man-loving in order to work out a mindset. :D
That's beside the point, anyway. Ramble. The point was that I adored the scariness and the stories and the show without any kind of slashtacular subtext, which has a different feeling of squee to that I got when, say, Krycek kissed Mulder on the cheek. (God, the uproar after that... XD) And that kind of squee - the non slashy kind - is the kind of squee that I'm getting from Supernatural. Because I don't do incest, and their relationship is complex and dependent and incredibly close because they're brothers, and that makes me happy enough. And that's not a fannish experience I've had so much for a long time, and it's interesting and cool and I think I'll settle in.
And I've got McShep for the slash, anyway. 'cos man.
Apologies for the abuse to the common comma in this post, for the record, and renewed begging for someone to come watch this damned show with me because I cannot watch it in segments of longer than five minutes without having to check my emails or get a glass of water or make a rambly post or something. And I can't watch it full screen, either. IF IT'S IN A LITTLE BOX IT CAN'T GET ME!
*giggles*
That's beside the point, anyway. Ramble. The point was that I adored the scariness and the stories and the show without any kind of slashtacular subtext, which has a different feeling of squee to that I got when, say, Krycek kissed Mulder on the cheek. (God, the uproar after that... XD) And that kind of squee - the non slashy kind - is the kind of squee that I'm getting from Supernatural. Because I don't do incest, and their relationship is complex and dependent and incredibly close because they're brothers, and that makes me happy enough. And that's not a fannish experience I've had so much for a long time, and it's interesting and cool and I think I'll settle in.
And I've got McShep for the slash, anyway. 'cos man.
Apologies for the abuse to the common comma in this post, for the record, and renewed begging for someone to come watch this damned show with me because I cannot watch it in segments of longer than five minutes without having to check my emails or get a glass of water or make a rambly post or something. And I can't watch it full screen, either. IF IT'S IN A LITTLE BOX IT CAN'T GET ME!
*giggles*
