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[nny]

Oh boy, have I ever fucked up this half term. The speed with which depression things came back as soon as I didn't have the distraction of my job shows, unsurprisingly, that I have not in fact dealt with anything here. Which means I fell directly back into old patterns of not working out, not working at all, and now I have so much organisation to do before the term starts, oh, TOMORROW. I keep kinda hoping that I've made progress, but mostly it's just that I've got better at hiding the lack of it from my front brain.

I'm so fed up with myself.

ETA: heh, see change of attitude from previous post. THIS IS WHY I LIKE FANDOM BETTER THAN REAL LIFE, OKAY?

Comments

[liz666.livejournal.com]

You ARE making progress! Everyone slacks off during the hols-you haven't been a teacher all that long and you can't expect to have it all balanced. You know you need to make sure that in the future, you have a better handle on your time management which, basically, is one of the major issues. When you have no time and a lot to do, you're good at keeping on top of it (no matter what you think you are)-this helps you have a sense of achievement and keeps the depression at bay. When you have too much time on your hands, you veg out, watch telly (like me!) and this is because the depression has taken hold again. The worse you feel, the worse it gets. So go back to anally making lists during holiday and weekend time. Set targets for what you need to get done, then reward yourself with the eye candy!
And you'll feel better in yourself too.

I love you huney-don't be so hard on yourself! Just try to do better next hols and focus now on catching up for the start of term. You know you can do it-turn everything off and get cracking!
<3
Talk to you soon babe

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SO MUCH.

D:

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

I basically entirely agree with this - you haven't wasted your time, you've worked and figuring out your own responses to stuff can be difficult and take a lot of time. But now you know that having a sense of goal-completion, specific with targets met, is important for your mental health... and there are plenty of ways of incorporating that.

*hug the Nny*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I kind of - I recognise that, though, it's the implementing it that is hella difficult. I need a structured way of going about this, and considering that that needs mental discipline in and of itself - which is precisely what I lack - I don't know how to go about it.

:/

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, that's definitely not to say that implementation is going to be easy - but that's what friends/CBT advice things online or in a book or whatever, are for.

To be honest, it also sounds like some of it might be helped by some basic organisational advice - like, it's not that you don't know what to do, but that you feel/get muddled and forget, or whatever? Which is maybe spilling out into the rest of your life in some ways. And there's plenty of self-help stuff for that about online. (Again, not that that means it's easy, but then big projects never are and it's always going to be a matter of taking it one step at a time and trying not to let inevitable moments of slipping up get you down too much.)

*more hug*

[spacedmonkey.livejournal.com]

Woke up at 4am with the "Oh god, I'm back to the child from hell tomorrow" stress which hasn't yet gone.

Have spent the morning laminating and printing out symbols for work this week and have only just stopped to have a bacon and fried egg sandwich because the only way to deal with this is to fill myself full of crap before he kicks it out of me tomorrow!

[villainny.livejournal.com]

*sympathetic cuddlins!*

I have... most of a unit of work planned, but I really need to clarify the order of the lessons and get at least the first couple of this weeks lessons sorted and resourced. I have no idea how full time teachers do this, seriously; most of the time I can just chill out with my own child from hell. XD

[spacedmonkey.livejournal.com]

Thankfully this half term is planned because we plan a term at a time, but by the end of next week I'm meant to have gotten the Summer Term Humanities units up for the whole of the school and I think that may be overly ambitious.

All afternoon all I've had in my head is bastardised poetry along the lines of ; "Oh to be in fandom, now that term time's here."

I think I need sedatives. :)

[taste-is-sweet.livejournal.com]

Ach. I'm sorry. I'm also very sympathetic and have totally been there, done that (or not done when I really should have...).

I am sure you will do brilliantly anyway, because you are brilliant. But being frustrated with yourself is one of the worst feelings of all. ::sends virtual hugs::