I probably should. But they just. They made me so miserable, katiemush. The citalopram made me start counting out painkillers when it moodflipped me, and the prozac wouldn't let me write. Not that I can write at the moment, either.
Mostly I don't want to be fucked up enough to need medicating. And the denial that comes as part of that is what's doing the upfucking.
*WHINES*
I don't know. I can't think straight enough for an informed decision about it, y'know?
I know, honey. It sucks, and it shouldn't be like that in the goddamn first place. But the very fact you can't make an informed decision makes me think it's probably worth going to the doctor - I know the two you've tried sucked for you, but two doesn't mean nothing will. And you don't deserve to have this be the situation, but like you said: it is, and it's making things suck for you and those of us who care about you. Not your fault, of course, but you giving up on the very idea that there are options to make this easier (if not maybe better) is one of the big obstacles to you getting that help.
And, um, again, of course you know that, cause I've said it before, but it seemed like repeating it wasa good idea. *hug*
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Date: 2009-03-01 09:18 pm (UTC)*hug*
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Date: 2009-03-01 09:21 pm (UTC)Mostly I don't want to be fucked up enough to need medicating. And the denial that comes as part of that is what's doing the upfucking.
*WHINES*
I don't know. I can't think straight enough for an informed decision about it, y'know?
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Date: 2009-03-01 09:34 pm (UTC)And, um, again, of course you know that, cause I've said it before, but it seemed like repeating it wasa good idea. *hug*