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May. 20th, 2010 04:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyHave you had that thing where you kind of stumble over a thought that's just presented itself, fully formed, and think holy crap, have I seriously internalised that? Like, it might be something blatantly misogynist or racist or homophobic or whatever, something that you don't believe but have stored somewhere in the back of your mind. And obviously you challenge it immediately, but you're just kind of knocked sideways that that thought even appeared. You know?
Last night I got a message on facebook from my brother. I think he may have been drunk, 'cos he said he loves me. XD And my brain just offered no, no, you love people, they don't love you.
Mostly I'm pissed off by this. I genuinely thought I was making progress in that area, but my brain is a stubborn ass.
(I'm also faintly worried about the fact that I've had a phonecall from my dad, facebook messages from my brother and younger sister, and emails from my mum and sister. I never get this much concern at once, what do they think is wrong with me? AM I DYING?)
Last night I got a message on facebook from my brother. I think he may have been drunk, 'cos he said he loves me. XD And my brain just offered no, no, you love people, they don't love you.
Mostly I'm pissed off by this. I genuinely thought I was making progress in that area, but my brain is a stubborn ass.
(I'm also faintly worried about the fact that I've had a phonecall from my dad, facebook messages from my brother and younger sister, and emails from my mum and sister. I never get this much concern at once, what do they think is wrong with me? AM I DYING?)
