nny | (no subject)

I'm attempting this new thing where I cut myself some slack.

Usually my final day of holidays routine is to panic hopelessly, attempt the stack of paperwork I haven't gone near all holiday, hate myself as I procrastinate ridiculously all day, go to bed and lay awake all night fretting.

I spent some of today doing that, I'll admit. Been in bed and reading hockey fic for most of it. But I'm attempting something new.

Since my brain is refusing to do anything remotely connected to marking/planning/paid work at the moment, I'm working around it rather than trying to force myself and failing.

I've done a food shop and bought a variety of tupperware so I can get started on making lunches for the week. I've washed up and cleaned the kitchen and bought an appetising seed/fruit mix to go on my porridge in the morning, thereby giving me a reason to get up earlier and not buy unhealthy breakfast food which'll make me feel crappy in the long run. I'm just about to do a bundle of laundry and then start picking out and hanging up my outfits for the week, including accessories and such, so that I have less to worry about in the mornings. I'm going to clean out and repack my school bag, and have a whip around the living room so that the desk is ready for tomorrow night when I will be mentally prepared to do school work. I'm going to pick up everything on my bedroom floor and tidy it away so that tomorrow morning I feel inspired to do stuff.

Lack of bullying plus actually achieving stuff that will be helpful makes up for lack of progress on marking for now, I think. :D