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Mar. 7th, 2013 07:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI interviewed to continue doing my job today.
I didn't get it.
Basically what was said was this:
my planning was excellent, my knowledge of pedagogy was excellent, my differentiation was excellent but my performance of the lesson was lacking.
This is interesting on two fronts.
#1: story of my life hello overthinking, which is the boring 'woe is me' self pitying answer, obviously. There's a grain of truth to it, though.
#2: it was a performance. My best lessons are just about talking to the kids; planning isn't something that works for me as a whole. I am a communicator and an entertainer, and as a result I am a popular teacher, but I have been doing this for five years and I'm genuinely not getting any better at the organisation side of things. I know how to be a good teacher by the book, and I can be a good teacher not by the book, and I can't do both at once. Especially not when you add the nearly thirty hours of marking a week I have to do in order to meet the necessary standards as well.
(I've been pretty much working 50 hour weeks plus extra at home for at least a term now. I mean, occasional breaks but mostly they've been too tired to do anything, so that's pretty much why I say nothing and produce nothing these days).
I'm looking at maybe teaching older kids? But I don't know that I have the necessary qualifications. And it's possible an entirely different career path is called for. I'm going to seek some career advice - just as soon as I work out where to do that (maybe the job center?)
I'm disappointed in myself and I'm trying very hard not to fall into self-flagellation because frankly just thinking I'm shit is the easy option. It leads to crying and no progress. I'm too old for that, and I deserve better.
I didn't get it.
Basically what was said was this:
my planning was excellent, my knowledge of pedagogy was excellent, my differentiation was excellent but my performance of the lesson was lacking.
This is interesting on two fronts.
#1: story of my life hello overthinking, which is the boring 'woe is me' self pitying answer, obviously. There's a grain of truth to it, though.
#2: it was a performance. My best lessons are just about talking to the kids; planning isn't something that works for me as a whole. I am a communicator and an entertainer, and as a result I am a popular teacher, but I have been doing this for five years and I'm genuinely not getting any better at the organisation side of things. I know how to be a good teacher by the book, and I can be a good teacher not by the book, and I can't do both at once. Especially not when you add the nearly thirty hours of marking a week I have to do in order to meet the necessary standards as well.
(I've been pretty much working 50 hour weeks plus extra at home for at least a term now. I mean, occasional breaks but mostly they've been too tired to do anything, so that's pretty much why I say nothing and produce nothing these days).
I'm looking at maybe teaching older kids? But I don't know that I have the necessary qualifications. And it's possible an entirely different career path is called for. I'm going to seek some career advice - just as soon as I work out where to do that (maybe the job center?)
I'm disappointed in myself and I'm trying very hard not to fall into self-flagellation because frankly just thinking I'm shit is the easy option. It leads to crying and no progress. I'm too old for that, and I deserve better.
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Date: 2013-03-08 01:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-08 01:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-08 09:50 am (UTC)Talk to your University (the one you graduated from in 1st instance) - you are probably (but not definitely!) too far out for free services but they may well offer something you can pay for and they are very focused on graduate careers. If you don't get on with them you could just try the local Uni on spec.
Look at Institute of Careers Guidance website - they have a list of independent careers advisers who you can see - again liable to be better placed to advise someone with a degree and significant career experience vs. the high street
https://nationalcareersservice.direct.gov.uk/aboutus/contactus/Pages/contactus.aspx - every way that you can engage with the free national careers service.
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Date: 2013-03-10 01:50 pm (UTC)