nny | (no subject)

I had to take a duvet day today because getting out of bed was making me cry. A lot of things have made me cry today, it's an extreme of PMT I haven't had in a while, so I made a cake and did all the washing up in order to convince myself I Can Do Things. It's a work in progress. Anyway, that's what all the whining was about yesterday. I managed to leave the house and pick up a parcel from the post office and the world was enormous and I was very small, and then I got home and had a little weep, and now I'm feeling achey and sick but almost human-shaped again, so that is good. I'll spend the evening slowly tidying my room, I think, until it looks like the space of a functioning adult, and then maybe my brain'll let me go back to pretending.

I'm really sorry I only use this place for sadness, guys. I'm mostly very happy atm, it's just far easier to be happy at people you don't know so well, and I am only ever surrounded in RL by people I don't know so well. I'm working on it?