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Nov. 28th, 2015 06:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnythe problem I'm having, of course, is that when one sets upon a place to stay in, one rather wants it to be perfect right away.
The other problem is that there is in actual fact no better alternative, although this may not precisely be a problem, since enducement to staying still is an advantage for The Long Run.
I'm just really tired of having no one near me. I've made some very isolating choices, and suddenly here consequences are, all of a sudden, because I've decided to stay still and face them. And the consequences are most noticeably the physical-ache sort of loneliness. The kind that sits in your chest like something rotten, slowly collapsing in on itself and leaving a vacuum behind.
I had excuses when I was moving. Now I'm staying put and wondering how many people are feeling sorry for me. I'm pretty sure it's most.
The other problem is that there is in actual fact no better alternative, although this may not precisely be a problem, since enducement to staying still is an advantage for The Long Run.
I'm just really tired of having no one near me. I've made some very isolating choices, and suddenly here consequences are, all of a sudden, because I've decided to stay still and face them. And the consequences are most noticeably the physical-ache sort of loneliness. The kind that sits in your chest like something rotten, slowly collapsing in on itself and leaving a vacuum behind.
I had excuses when I was moving. Now I'm staying put and wondering how many people are feeling sorry for me. I'm pretty sure it's most.
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