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[nny]

Okay, I've totally been away for a few days, but you guys have got up to skip=40 and more! I'm kind of delighted by this.

Things in life are moderately terrible at the moment - I've applied for a job I'm not sure I can do while maintaining mental health, I've screwed up various financial things and I don't have the fortitude to work out how that's actually going to affect me, I've not actually done anything on the weekends at all this year up to and including leaving my flat, my nose is still slowly bleeding - but I'm feeling fairly optimistic anyway. If ever there was proof that feelings are chemicals and bear little resemblance to actual reality, right?

There are of course various things I know will make me feel better: spending more time planning effective lessons, getting caught up with marking, eating well, exercising more. I just am perpetually tired and lacking motivation. Considering that my nose is still bleeding and has been for a month I think this might be lingering concussion stuff? I hope so. I'd like there to be an end point. :D

Mostly I want motivation to finish the Person of Interest fic I started a couple of weeks ago. It's only going to be short, I know exactly what needs to happen, but committing fic in a new fandom is terrible and unnerving.

Comments

[spikedluv]

I feel you on the lack of motivation. Good luck kicking it into gear (and as a bonus, maybe finishing that POI fic *g*).

[retsuko]

I'm sorry to hear that things are so stressful, and I hope your plans do come to fruition asap.

Also, I can't wait to read your PoI fic! :)

[in_the_blue]

Almost every winter I go through a month or two where my nose bleeds a lot. Not all the time, but when the air gets too dry then it bleeds. Maybe that's all that's going on with you? I dunno. I would hope that's what it is, instead of something lingering from a concussion.