A little of the state of the Nny

[nny]

Briefly:

I am still teaching, although that may soon change. It is a job that takes every single part of my life and offers very little that is positive in return. That may be my particular school, but I've been there for nearly three years now and I don't honestly have much left to give. The stress and sleeplessness is making me sick, and I'm very tired of having mandatory attendance meetings with a man who earns twice my wage and works 10-15 fewer hours a week. I also disagree with the whole new exam spec.

I am still in my little Nottingham flat, and I love how long it's been since I've moved. I'd like a garden at some point, but considering how very scraping by I have been, that's not likely any time soon. My living situation, however, is mostly good.

I've been writing practically daily for a few months now, and it's of varying quality but it feels kinda good. Niche pairings reduce the pressure. XD

I've been reading mostly K.J. Charles and Jordan L. Hawk, because it turns out that I have a favourite niche genre and it's historical gay supernatural romance. I have however just bought Sapiens by Yuval Noah Harari and The Essex Serpent by Sarah Perry, both of which I intend to read over half term. I do really need to make a mandatory tally though, in which I am not allowed to buy a new book until I've read the ridiculous number in my flat that I haven't read yet...

In terms of watching... I have this anxiety thing where watching new things is hard. I look at Netflix, at all the beautiful things that I have no doubts whatsoever that I will love, and instead I go back to the familiar and safe. I did watch Shadowhunters, influenced by the endless Alec/Magnus gifs on Tumblr, but I promise I'll never buy the books. It was ridiculous prettiness, which was both what I expected and needed, and in the shape of the romance greatly resembles ridiculous Regency romances, so very much my cup of tea. I'd most like to watch Black Sails and American Gods next, but am unsure how to go about doing so.

I want very much to form a platonic sort of marriage with someone so that I don't have to pay bills alone.

What have you been up to?

Comments

[tielan]

I want very much to form a platonic sort of marriage with someone so that I don't have to pay bills alone.

This is why I live with my sister. Plus I like living with other people. It allows me solitude while keeping me from being alone.

[gool_duck]

I've been reading quite a bit of KJ Charles, but so far only historicals, not fantasy. I really enjoy it.

Black Sails and American Gods are up on Amazon Prime, for legal streaming - I think you could wait until the series of American Gods is done, as it is currently releasing weekly episodes, and then sign up for a free trial and watch it.

I'm sorry the job is so stressful, and that so much of the stress seems to be not what is needed to do the actual work, but extraneous, unnecessary things.

[catwalksalone]

I second the Amazon Prime free trial idea. You get a month, I think, and that's 4 short seasons for Black Sails and one for American Gods. Totally doable.

I'm so happy you're writing! The world is always a better place with your words in it.

I think if your work is grinding you down that much then you do need to look for what's next. We're none of us guaranteed happiness in our jobs, but we shouldn't have to be utterly miserable. You deserve way better than that.

[apiphile]

I mean personally I have got shit-drunk two nights in a row and befriended a variety of bears and had loud horrible opinions about people who wear loafers with tassels on so if we're going with "comforting and familiar" ...

ALSO I met someone/befriended someone from Stenton (which I believe is your neck of the woods) whom I think you might enjoy the presence of.