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Millicon ain't happening.

London ain't happening any time soon.

I'm not gonna be getting any new work shoes, or clothes, or pretty much anything else.

I have to pay off my credit card entirely by the end of the month, and frankly it'll be a relief to get the damned thing off my back and to be done with bloody Natwest and their excellent system of sending me no reminders ever. Thing is, I have to pay off my credit card. By the end of the month. Which is almost the entirety of my wages. Which means pushing back my rent even further, which means I can't even start beginning to save until about April, May.

I am not saying this to get money. I do not want any money from anyone. If I wanted money I could ask my grandparents, but the truth is this is my idiot mess and I'm the one that needs to get out of it.

I just needed somewhere to say yeah. Actually, I'm having a pretty shit day.