That was, for quite some time, my default setting. It still often is. Although, I'd gotten rather to the point where I was okay with the idea of being alone because, regardless of what other people thought of me, I liked me.
All of that aside, there are people who love you, and you are young yet. We love you.
Nny, I would never ever say you ought to feel differently, because it's very hard (and nearly counterproductive) to try to feel differently, but I hope you KNOW better.
I had that for five years. And then I met a sweet boy in a bar (he doesn't drink. he is a buddhist, he loves me two years! we are getting married) and now I don't think about that anymore.
Love will come when you least expect it. At least, that's how it happened for me and just about everyone I know who finally found it. You'll see and later you'll look back on this and be grateful you didn't give up hoping for it.
We love you, Nny. You're not alone. And I will personally be there to tell you that, each time you need to hear it. Until you believe it. And I am very stubborn. So there.
Sure. Everyone does. And then I realized how unattractive it made me, so I stopped worrying about it and learned to love myself. I then met my husband, who said he fell in love with me because I act 'natural'. QED.
And remember, while you're worrying about tomorrow, you're forgetting to enjoy today. And that's an awful waste, don't you think? ;-)
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Date: 2004-10-07 03:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-07 03:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-07 03:47 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2004-10-07 03:48 pm (UTC)HUGS
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Date: 2004-10-07 03:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-07 03:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-07 03:54 pm (UTC)All of that aside, there are people who love you, and you are young yet. We love you.
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Date: 2004-10-07 04:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-07 04:17 pm (UTC)*tight squeezy hugs*
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Date: 2004-10-07 04:17 pm (UTC)And I love you - you ninny.
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Date: 2004-10-07 04:44 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2004-10-07 04:44 pm (UTC)Just keep telling yourself it'll be alright in the end. You won't be alone forever, just for the moment.
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Date: 2004-10-07 05:17 pm (UTC)every single day.
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Date: 2004-10-07 06:10 pm (UTC)We love you, Nny. You're not alone. And I will personally be there to tell you that, each time you need to hear it. Until you believe it. And I am very stubborn. So there.
*Hugs tight*
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Date: 2004-10-07 08:02 pm (UTC)*snugs*
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Date: 2004-10-07 08:14 pm (UTC)And remember, while you're worrying about tomorrow, you're forgetting to enjoy today. And that's an awful waste, don't you think? ;-)
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Date: 2004-10-08 12:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-08 12:40 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2004-10-08 07:37 am (UTC)But now I smack you upside the head because I love you. A lot.