Well, my brain has never worked in a very linear way, and as I've gotten older (ahahahahaha, yes, I realize how young I still am), it's only gotten worse and worse. And sometimes it feels like I'm not even sure what's going on up there. University kicked most of the knowlege that I had and was proud of out, and replaced it with stuff that I can't remember or care nothing about remembering, and so I don't, and instead, it feels empty. Where I used to get confused by the myriad voices in my head, shouting to drown each other out, now it can be silence just as often. I forget words a lot, and forget things and activities even more. I find myself going to say something and it'll be a complete blank - confusing.
And I hate that, and now I run away in embarrassment.
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Date: 2004-11-16 04:46 pm (UTC)Well, my brain has never worked in a very linear way, and as I've gotten older (ahahahahaha, yes, I realize how young I still am), it's only gotten worse and worse. And sometimes it feels like I'm not even sure what's going on up there. University kicked most of the knowlege that I had and was proud of out, and replaced it with stuff that I can't remember or care nothing about remembering, and so I don't, and instead, it feels empty. Where I used to get confused by the myriad voices in my head, shouting to drown each other out, now it can be silence just as often. I forget words a lot, and forget things and activities even more. I find myself going to say something and it'll be a complete blank - confusing.
And I hate that, and now I run away in embarrassment.