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Mar. 8th, 2005 04:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI've been.
Um.
I was going to be RPing tonight. And then the doorbell rang. It was crazedferret. And that was... I dunno. A couple of hours ago? And she's sobbed all over me, and told me a couple of home truths about what a terrible friend I am. And the fuck of it is that she's right. I'm... I'm so fucking wrapped up in myself, in the internet world I'm comfortable in, in my own fucking self PITY, that I have been the worst friend to her. I just... all the effort's on her side, as she sees it.
I know it's not entirely true. I rolled out of my sick bed on valentines day and took her wine, I've counselled her through a lot, I go over when there's a problem, but... I go over when there's a problem. I forget I should visit more often than that.
I'm a bad friend. I don't know why. I don't know how I've managed to keep people friends with me after being so crap. I need to work on this. I just...
Urgh. I feel so disgusted with myself.
I really don't deserve the friends I have.
Um.
I was going to be RPing tonight. And then the doorbell rang. It was crazedferret. And that was... I dunno. A couple of hours ago? And she's sobbed all over me, and told me a couple of home truths about what a terrible friend I am. And the fuck of it is that she's right. I'm... I'm so fucking wrapped up in myself, in the internet world I'm comfortable in, in my own fucking self PITY, that I have been the worst friend to her. I just... all the effort's on her side, as she sees it.
I know it's not entirely true. I rolled out of my sick bed on valentines day and took her wine, I've counselled her through a lot, I go over when there's a problem, but... I go over when there's a problem. I forget I should visit more often than that.
I'm a bad friend. I don't know why. I don't know how I've managed to keep people friends with me after being so crap. I need to work on this. I just...
Urgh. I feel so disgusted with myself.
I really don't deserve the friends I have.
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Date: 2005-03-07 08:50 pm (UTC)I am such an assface. *dies laughing* Sorry.
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Date: 2005-03-08 12:15 pm (UTC)The point could be made that if they're good friends, nobody deserves them.
Cos we all suck.
That said, gramps, love you anyway. <3