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Feb. 16th, 2006 12:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI ate solid food (that wasn't bread) for the first time in three days yesterday, and my stomach very kindly let me know what a mistake I was making and in no uncertain terms insisted I go back onto the soup. However, I'm feeling better enough that I'm going to go out and buy vegetables and make my own soup. I'm also tempted to bake, which is surely some kind of exquisite torture cooked up by my stomach to make my brain hurt, or vice versa - we'll ignore it, in any case, but keep the urge in mind for when I'm feeling better.
Whether or not I go to brokeback again tonight depends on my stomach more than anything.
Today's going to be spent erranding - superdrug for shampoo and tweezy things, vegetables, doing laundry, processing some apps, probably. I want to write something but I'm not sure what - something with no pressure. Something where people won't tell me I'm OOC. Original stuff, maybe; I don't know.
What I will say is reassuring, though, is that I wrote an out-of-bar post for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
milliways_bar's Aziraphael, then decided that it stood well enough on its own to post to lower_tadfield. (Occasionally I get a wave of nostalgia and potter over to remind them that I exist). It seemed to go down well, and the characterisation/character voice was praised.
It's affirming to think that I've been playing him for over a year and a half, now, and although he's changed in many ways and his reactions to things have changed in many ways, he's still IC enough for people to say that.
As for myself, mentally, I'm feeling Better. It won't last of course, but I think I'm making real progress. I'm still going to have fits of depression, I've come to terms with that, but I think... well, steps have been taken in areas in which steps were pretty necessary. I'm trying to believe in myself a bit more because although I do have faults, and no one recognises them better than me (doesn't act on them, just recognises them) there are other parts, too. I do have good points.
It's sporadic stupidly heavy showers of rain followed by major sun, today. Best kind of weather, I reckon.
I'm happy.
Whether or not I go to brokeback again tonight depends on my stomach more than anything.
Today's going to be spent erranding - superdrug for shampoo and tweezy things, vegetables, doing laundry, processing some apps, probably. I want to write something but I'm not sure what - something with no pressure. Something where people won't tell me I'm OOC. Original stuff, maybe; I don't know.
What I will say is reassuring, though, is that I wrote an out-of-bar post for
milliways_bar's Aziraphael, then decided that it stood well enough on its own to post to lower_tadfield. (Occasionally I get a wave of nostalgia and potter over to remind them that I exist). It seemed to go down well, and the characterisation/character voice was praised. It's affirming to think that I've been playing him for over a year and a half, now, and although he's changed in many ways and his reactions to things have changed in many ways, he's still IC enough for people to say that.
As for myself, mentally, I'm feeling Better. It won't last of course, but I think I'm making real progress. I'm still going to have fits of depression, I've come to terms with that, but I think... well, steps have been taken in areas in which steps were pretty necessary. I'm trying to believe in myself a bit more because although I do have faults, and no one recognises them better than me (doesn't act on them, just recognises them) there are other parts, too. I do have good points.
It's sporadic stupidly heavy showers of rain followed by major sun, today. Best kind of weather, I reckon.
I'm happy.
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-16 05:18 am (UTC)All my favourite fandom figures do this to me.
*sulks*
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:25 am (UTC)(Seriously. It has mythology and religion and space battles and banter and politics and wonderful female characters and fucked-up romance and and and everything you could possibly want, except perhaps Paul Bettany.)
Anyway, the last thing I wrote in my journal is technically BSG but also kind of so far removed from any sort of canon that it probably doesn't count. It's like...crack!angst. Only not. Really, I should not be allowed to type when in a bitter mood.
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:35 am (UTC)Not that I'm ever going to curb your creative processes because you're one of the most talented writers I know.
BSG is thing with CKR?
*totally one-track-mindy*
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:41 am (UTC)YES. I WAS ABOUT TO COMMENT. AND REMIND YOU OF THIS FACT. And I totally put a whole sequence of him in the vid because I loooove his episode.
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:44 am (UTC)Really fine? Or just saying fine?
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:47 am (UTC)Adios! Be well!
:-*
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:52 am (UTC)Is very good though! And... man, but she's hot.
SLEEP GOOD!
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:24 am (UTC)I never commented on the Aziraphale thing...
*shifty*
But I read it and it was love, so. ♥
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Date: 2006-02-16 05:35 am (UTC)Thanks, darlin'. I very much appreciate it.
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Date: 2006-02-16 08:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-16 08:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-16 12:59 pm (UTC)Yeah, we all have faults. But keep concentrating on recognizing the things you like about yourself. You're doing great. **Hugs**