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[nny]

Two steps forward, one step back.

That's all it is.

I can cope.







Stomach now rejecting soup also. And I cannot take any more time off work without, like, losing my job.

The aggravating thing is that the lows are probably so bad because I'm trying so much harder. If I don't care, then I don't feel so bloody low when things go wrong. And I'm trying so hard to care, and to involve myself with life, and to stop hiding. And things I've done before keep coming back and smacking me in the mouth, and longstanding situations or problems with me or whatever keep announcing themselves, and the urge to run away is close to overwhelming because now these are things that I have to deal with.

Hiding was easier.


*sighs* It's just the step back.

I can cope.

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[rimestock.livejournal.com]

One step forward, two steps back.
Turn to your partner, dressed in black
and shake their face like a maniac
and that's the Transylvania Two-Step.

*hugs you close*

You are loved.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I know I'm loved, that's not the problem.

Oh fukkit, I'm tired. I don't know.

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

I think I thought you knew, but that doesn't mean it's not a nice thing to hear sometimes anyway.

*snuggles you*

You are tired and sick and cranky, it seems, and life is being generally poopy at the moment.

It is February.

February is always a dismal month; that's why it's so short. Otherwise, we'd hate it even more.

That in mind, soon enough it will be March, and spring, and it will be good.

And we can make it that long.

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

Yeah. *hugs you lots*

Also, one thing that occurs to me is: most people need help when it comes to really caring about the world and what they're doing in it, if not occasionally then on a more long-term basis. That's not a bad thing either.

[kenovay.livejournal.com]

I'm so proud of you. And I hate saying that, because argh, patronising. You don't need me to be proud. But. Am.

You can call me anytime.

[chains-of-irony.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You're right, you can cope!

This is my coping song (though you proabably have it already.) Plus the singer is hot. :p

http://s39.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=33WB9JO0MNSTO12G5OH0520B89

Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there, with open arms and open eyes...

[la-rainette.livejournal.com]

It is just the step back. And yes, it's harder when you try, cos when you don't, you have so much less to lose. But hiding isn't that much easier, eventually you always come back to haunt yourself, you know? *g* Don't run away, please.

(also, am sorry I didn't manage to spend some time with you on chat this week. I wanted to, and then I got completely overwhelmed left, right and center, and tomorrow I drive away for stupid test wah.)

*hugs tight*

[varadia]

Coping is a bitch.

I mean, it's necessary, and you can do that (which you know) but it is still a bitch. The having to.

*hugs*

Anytime you want to kick life in the goolies, I am with you.

Or,you know, there's always cement overshoes. I know a guy.

[flyakate]

Can you still drink water? Staying hydrated when you feel like crap might not seem that important, but can make you feel better.

*hugs you carefully* Take care, dear, and don't forget to take deep breaths.