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[nny]

I am very tentative with people.

I am very aware of defined social boundaries, even if there is no definition anywhere other than in my own head. I need to know what I'm allowed to talk about, what there is to talk about, which topics are safe.

I want to participate in intellectual discussion, but I don't; I'd rather be thought stupid than remove all doubt. That said, this probably makes me more stupid than I ought to be since it means that my ideas are only ever developed inside my own brain. I'm not very well-rounded.

Humour is a defense mechanism; in this I'm absolutely a cliché.

If I'm silent, it's usually not that I don't want to talk to you. It's that I'm not entirely certain how to.

This'd be why I'm not really terribly good at instant messenger. It's nothing personal, mostly.

Comments

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

*chimes in with a "me too" and offers hugs*

[illmantrim.livejournal.com]

Yer still nifty!

And I am with the awkwardness myself of conversationality.

[la-rainette.livejournal.com]

*nods* This is pretty much how I feel most of the time, too. I really like that you have the guts to express these things so frankly.