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[nny]

Everyone else appears to be going forward, and starting new classes and getting Vox things and moving on and getting fabulous jobs, and me? I'm doing an A-level. And looking at unis again. I am moving backwards. It is to sulk.

I'm turning into an evil bitch from hell, I'm afraid. I'm so sick of hurting and it's making me horrible. I complain too much, I realise this - livejournal posts now are at the times I'm in a bad enough mood not to care that I'm spamming you with whining. I'm sick of hurting and I'm sick of not being able to quite keep up with LJ. I feel like I'm laughing at jokes five minutes after everyone else in the room has already got it.



The thing that's made today better is the laaaarge amount of emails I woke up to today. It's been a long summer at milliways_bar with no apps, and now they're open again, and people are pouncing. It's cool. :D


And now I'm going to get blood taken. Which involves a looooong walk. Oh, fun.

*bitch bitch bitch*

Comments

[nepheliad.livejournal.com]

And here I felt guilty about hitting 'send,' thinking I would just end up contributing to the neverending mass of spam you poor girls get.

But hey, if you like it ...

[campkilkare]

Don't worry, my dear Nny. I am not even taking A-levels. I am working in the kind of job they warned me to go to college to AVOID, and have no prospects.

If you are moving backwards, then I am on the wrong road, going the wrong way, in an bus with a bomb on it.

*hugs!* Feel better.

[manynames.livejournal.com]

You're not moving backwards, just forwards in a slightly alternative direction. Or at least, this is what I tell myself when I consider that I'll be going for the first time while my original batch of friends are starting their final year! You're getting on with your life and taking positive action towards getting where you want to be. Even having an idea of where that is is more than a lot of people have.

[apiphile.livejournal.com]

At least you're moving! Some of us are standing still.

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

It's not moving backwards. It's taking a pause so that you can do a better job of moving forwards. *huuuuuuuuugs*

[silveraspen]

Sweetheart, I took ten years between uni and where I am now.

I don't regret it, because what I learned in that time has been INCREDIBLY valuable in ways I could NEVER have expected, and what I am doing now fills my days with joy.

*points at icon, smiling*

[vimeslady.livejournal.com]

Don't ever feel you need to apologize for whining in your Journal. It's your place to express yourself, and we all really care and want to know how you're doing, even when the news is not good. And you have every right to feel low right now. It's terrible to be sick for so long and the doctors not able to find out what's going on. I think of you every day and hope things get better soon.

[amphibienne.livejournal.com]

Everyone else appears to be going forward

*sulks* I really count for nothing, then. I mean, I am 40 and going back to school with twenty-somethings -- that hardly counts as a forward move, now, does it?

*curls up in a corner and sulks some more*

:p