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[nny]

Hey guys.

I'm not talking much because I don't have much to talk about - I've deleted a lot of beginnings to posts the past few days. I'm depressed, pretty much, and it's just too long spent in my parents' house, too long spent feeling like a child again. That added to the giving up of things Milliways: modliness, Brian and Aziraphael over a period of weeks. It's left me feeling kinda isolated and depressed, which is somewhat ridiculous since you manufacture your own isolation on the internet. It's terribly teen-angsty of me.

Mostly it's making it hard to get things done. I'm tired all the time and just wallowing in SG:A and AU ideas that I'm struggling to write/against writing.

I'm hoping things'll get better once I know one way or another about Bath Uni. I'm pinning a lot on that at the moment because it's... it's a solid escape date. I mean, I love my family, I honestly do, it's just that they're a layer between me and the world. Between me and being a grown up, dealing with things and people.

So if anyone's feeling neglected, please don't - I have AIM but I'm never signed on because I'm awkward about talking to people. The only person I've really spoken to of late has been soupytwist because we're gonna be living together next year (fingers crossed) and this is crash course in dealing with Nny. XD

Anyway. Hope to be more interesting and sociable soon. In better news, I am getting £43 from Dell. It's not much, but since I have the computer now I'm really not inclined to kick up a fuss.

Comments

[blueeyedtigress.livejournal.com]

Poor 'Nny!

On some level, there will always be a little bit of your Aziraphael there when I talk to you -- you've made an indellible mark on him, and on Milliways. Be proud! (Yeah, yeah, my saying that doesn't help. My bad.)

I have all possible digits and eyes crossed for you for Bath!
Yay on the pounds back from Dell!

And, heh, speaking as someone who's been living alone for a long time: independence it nice, but there are things I look back wistfully upon about living at home .... it'd certainly be nice to have some help with groceries and rent and bills and cleaning and suchlike. 8P
(I know, that doesn't help you either. Sorry ....)

[tropes.livejournal.com]

<3

[unravels.livejournal.com]

Living with family does wear you down after a while. I know they were trying to help me, keep me focused and be supportive when I was there... it's just that the need for independence sort of erupted after a certain period of time. There were days when nothing was actually wrong when I still thought I had to get out or I'd just start screaming and not stop. Argh.

I'm not feeling neglected - I know all kinds of things are in upheaval right now - but I'm very glad you checked in.

[silveraspen]

Still here, ever and always, and I know you're not neglecting.

Hang in there, hon. *hugs lots*

[vivien]

Oh honey, I am so sorry you're feeling isolated and blue. Change is hard, and this transition specially so. Plus you just plain don't feel good, and that never helps.

I don't feel neglected, but I shall endeavor to send you happy emails often.

[liz666.livejournal.com]

*Warm squishy hugs*

Family's important and great to have when you need their support. But otherwise they drive you nuts. Have everything crossed for you and Bath uni-Myf and I could visit you lots!. They'd be insane not to snatch you up. Love you