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[nny]

Necessary trade-off; coherence versus lack of pain, and today I've gone for coherence which makes me useless for everything else. I can understand the book I'm reading, but because of that I can't do much else apart from reading a book because it hurts. I made it downstairs once today, at least, but then proceeded to have a fight with my sister and come back upstairs to cry, and the fight was more about how much I ache and how she's tired from school than anything real and concrete and lacking in lame. Likewise: most days I can deal with things she has and I never did, by virtue of her being the youngest, but today I'm stroppy and sulky and generally pretty damned unpleasant to be around. I'm doing that thing where I'm posting for fear you'll forget me if I don't, but the substance of the post is dull and repetitive and the more likely of the two options to drive you away.

Annoying, isn't it?

Possibly I should just put this journal into hibernation until the weather's warmer.