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Jun. 29th, 2007 07:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI'm trying to post less for the same reason as ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
innerbrat. My counsellor person didn't suggest it, since she had told me the wrong time this week and quite clearly didn't have time for me; it's a conclusion I came to myself when I realised that almost my every thought was filtered through how I would post it to LJ. I can't seem to think things through without an audience/reaction, and while this is a long-term problem it is one that I have the capacity to sort out and I should at least make an effort towards doing so. I need to not have my entire day depend on whether I have comment notifications to wake up to.
*grins*
I'm mostly okay, except for the weird weather making my existential (environmental) anxiety go into overdrive; I'm mostly trying to ignore it, which is more successful due to sitting in an office eight and a half hours every day, typing cruise details into a computer. I don't understand how people with computer-based jobs can then come home and type more, since I guess I'll train myself into it but right now my hands hurt like a bitch. Possibly it's an arthritis hangover. Anyway, yes; I'm too tired to worry or think about anything, much, right now. I'm also too tired to read my flist, and I've been avoiding the internet for a couple of days, so I apologise for things I may have missed. I'll probably keep a closer eye on you all from now on, just not so close (obsessively refreshing) as before.
Smack me if I talk too much.
innerbrat. My counsellor person didn't suggest it, since she had told me the wrong time this week and quite clearly didn't have time for me; it's a conclusion I came to myself when I realised that almost my every thought was filtered through how I would post it to LJ. I can't seem to think things through without an audience/reaction, and while this is a long-term problem it is one that I have the capacity to sort out and I should at least make an effort towards doing so. I need to not have my entire day depend on whether I have comment notifications to wake up to. *grins*
I'm mostly okay, except for the weird weather making my existential (environmental) anxiety go into overdrive; I'm mostly trying to ignore it, which is more successful due to sitting in an office eight and a half hours every day, typing cruise details into a computer. I don't understand how people with computer-based jobs can then come home and type more, since I guess I'll train myself into it but right now my hands hurt like a bitch. Possibly it's an arthritis hangover. Anyway, yes; I'm too tired to worry or think about anything, much, right now. I'm also too tired to read my flist, and I've been avoiding the internet for a couple of days, so I apologise for things I may have missed. I'll probably keep a closer eye on you all from now on, just not so close (obsessively refreshing) as before.
Smack me if I talk too much.
