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I'm trying to post less for the same reason as innerbrat. My counsellor person didn't suggest it, since she had told me the wrong time this week and quite clearly didn't have time for me; it's a conclusion I came to myself when I realised that almost my every thought was filtered through how I would post it to LJ. I can't seem to think things through without an audience/reaction, and while this is a long-term problem it is one that I have the capacity to sort out and I should at least make an effort towards doing so. I need to not have my entire day depend on whether I have comment notifications to wake up to.

*grins*

I'm mostly okay, except for the weird weather making my existential (environmental) anxiety go into overdrive; I'm mostly trying to ignore it, which is more successful due to sitting in an office eight and a half hours every day, typing cruise details into a computer. I don't understand how people with computer-based jobs can then come home and type more, since I guess I'll train myself into it but right now my hands hurt like a bitch. Possibly it's an arthritis hangover. Anyway, yes; I'm too tired to worry or think about anything, much, right now. I'm also too tired to read my flist, and I've been avoiding the internet for a couple of days, so I apologise for things I may have missed. I'll probably keep a closer eye on you all from now on, just not so close (obsessively refreshing) as before.

Smack me if I talk too much.

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[vimeslady.livejournal.com]

every thought was filtered through how I would post it to LJ

You mean, that's not normal? That actually a problem? Oh dear. Pretty much everything I experience is composed in my mind as an LJ post. I don't actually post the vast majority of it, but that's my brains default setting. Then again, I've known for years that I have an unhealthy addiction to ElJay.

*Hugs* Post when you're moved to and read when you feel like it. And you never talk too much, but even if you did, you're too nice for me to smack you.

[midnight-violet.livejournal.com]

here's a weird thing: despite the fact i nearly never post (yes, my last 2 were in March...) my head insists on composing things in terms of posts, of things to say/write..how can i make this referential, funny, acceptable, actually make a point in a way that people will be amused or interested by rather than "eh?" or boredom, or irritation.
First thing would be to be readworthy i guess. There is a "why should anyone give a shit?" factor here.

I am a BIG lurker, i think this possibly has something to do with it. Though in honesty the amount i try to think of how to say and then junk might indicate otherwise.

HUGS, anyway.There's a bloody ENGLAND in the way.

You don't talk too much. But for some unfathomable reason, i do have a clue, slightly, how frustating it can be to have writing it LJ way stuck in the midst of experience, so if you reckon cutting back'll help, go for it.:)

[la-rainette.livejournal.com]

almost my every thought was filtered through how I would post it to LJ. I can't seem to think things through without an audience/reaction

Well. I know that to me at least, putting my thoughts into coherent sentences is a big part of my thought process. So while I understand the part about not wanting to wait for comment notifications, I also think that hoping for a reaction -- as in, hoping for someone to help you along and make your thoughts go further -- is a good thing.

Thinking of you, hoping you manage to figure things out. :) <3

[bravecows.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Be well.