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So apparently I can't hang up the phone without waving.

Things procrastination teaches you #3756.

*grins*

At the moment? Right now, at this very second? I want to chuck it all in. Genuinely. I am tired and I'm snowed under and I've spent an entire weekend unable to make myself work in any meaningful way. But I can kind of see a point where I might possibly be a little more organised; I can see a point at which I might be able to plan a lesson a couple of days in advance and get feedback on the plan before I deliver it.

I'm going to have to work like hell to get to that point, spend the week working harder than ever and clawing back every minute/hour/day that I've wasted until I have that much time in which to work, but I can see that this moment does potentially exist and that's kind of reassuring. The amount of work I'm gonna have to do to get there hurts my brain, though.

I'm considering attempting the counselling thing again. I'm not hugely comfortable talking in a public post about why, actually, which is kind of a new sensation for me, but I think it might well be advisable. I just haven't a bloody clue when the hell I'd fit it in.

So yeah - things could, possibly, get better. Depending on me. And right now I'm not the most dependable. Right now, at this very second, I want to chuck it all in.

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I think the fact you can see that day ahead is the important thing, and that this is exactly what teacher training is for. My email remains true, dangit.

I love you and I think that if you can fit in the counselling anywhere, it is probably a good idea. Even the healthiest and most functional people need that space to sort their head out, sometimes. And I am here and talkable all evening should you like. Or, y'know, bell me and I'll ring you.

I love you a lot, honey.