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[nny]

The problem the problem the problem with fighting so hard to make changes is that sustained effort is awful and impossibly difficult, and every bad mood feels like a failure. And since you're feeling like a failure anyway you might as well, right? With the old patterns of thought and the mental soundtrack?

The swamp is always waiting, it's only the surface that the mental flamethrower has dried out. Working on climate change, obviously, but there's a lot of shit still to clear up.

Comments

[soupytwist]

If it helps at all - even if you occasionally fall back in the swamp, I don't at ALL think that means the time and hard work with the flame thrower were wasted. Ten minutes on dry land is better than no minutes on dry land. Hell, one minute is better than no minutes. Which I realise is an easier thing to say and believe from the outside, but I also really genuinely believe that: not only are you worth the effort (and you are, even when you don't feel like it), but I am assured by people who should know that every minute you can manage makes a difference. I mean, if you manage ten minutes, then fucking hell YES you managed ten minutes! Maybe next time you can manage eleven, and if you can't, you have a goal. Anything you can manage is an achievement - and a meaningful one, even if only you can fully realise how difficult it was to achieve.

*hugs you so much*

[skygiants]

Change is the hardest thing. And you are a HELL of a badass for making it -- every time you get out of the swamp, that is the most badass thing to do. Falling isn't failure; getting up and trying again is success. <333333

[varadia]

The swamp is totally always waiting, but the more you explore it and work with it (and against it), the more aware you are of the solid spots underneath the whole mess.

It makes getting out the next time a lot easier.

(Though it sucks that there always seems to be a next time.)

<3