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[nny]

I really hate my catholic school upbringing. Because I'm listening to John Tavener, and drinking apple tea, and talking to the girl I'm hopelessly in love with, and there's a little voice in the back of my head that won't stop telling me I don't deserve this. Bastards.

For now, though? Ill as I am, I'm happy.

*grins*

Comments

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

Wow!

It is kind of weird - being in love. And I think it is normal to distrust such rampant happiness. It won't last in its present state - it will change. But hopefully it will deepen and become more dear to you, more real, and more solid.

Love that has been bruised a few times and survived - has been worked at - is even better. :D

I miss my boy!

We've been madly in love for several years. And I keep wondering why we are still so freakin delirous. But I try not to question it too much. It is better to spend time working on keeping that way. :D

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I really hope it will. I'm trying not to place any expectations on anything, but it's hard not to want to make plans for the future. Very odd feeling.

And don't worry, you'll see him again soon. Congratulations, man. Reading your squeeful posts makes me happy. *g*

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

There is nothing wrong with making plans for the future - you just have to make them together. :D

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Bit difficult at the moment.

*glares at the Irish Sea*

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

:D

I don't know how all you people do long distance - you must be way tougher than I am!

That sea won't always be in the way.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Should all go to plan, which it NEVER DOES, 15 days.

*boogies*

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

yay!

*crosses fingers, toes, and eyes*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Well, yes, yay, but also TERRIFYING.

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

Why? *confuzzled*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

*scuffs foot on floor*

Um... becausewehaven'tactuallymetyet?

Shaddup.

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

Oh that would be scary! *holds your hand*

But you have met. You know each other. You just haven't been together in person yet.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Thank you for seeing it that way. *g*

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

Love is love.

It does feel weird to be with friends you have only known on line - in person. The dynamic is different and you have to just go with it. But that doesn't mean it is bad. Just different.

I think it would only be a problem if you were projecting an image that isn't you to the other person on line. But I can't see either of you doing that.

*great big hugs*