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[nny]

I am in a Really Sucky Mood.

My financial and educational situations are fucked. I'm tired. I'm hungry. I have to babysit on saturday night, which cuts way down on RP time. I shouldn't be RPing ANYWAY because I have SO MUCH TO DO. I'm going to be 22 in a week, and I hate that because it's a PROPER age. I mean, up to 21 you can be an immature twat without people commenting. 22 is an official ADULT age. And I don't want it to be my birthday because I know, as a day, it's going to suck, and I haven't the time to organise anything, and I don't WANT to organise anything because it would be a disappointment in any case. And my room's a mess and it's distracting me but I can't tidy it because I KNOW it's a procrastination technique and I haven't the time to procrastinate but hell what the fuck else is this? And I nearly killed myself with asthma last night but have I gone to the doctor to get an inhaler? No. That would involve registering at a doctor. Am I an idiot? Yes. I'm self destructive. I make my life hard for myself. I know this. I just... I hate myself. I must. I'm not as hard on anyone else in the entire universe as I am on myself.

I'm full of random rage and I want to hit things or fling this keyboard across the room or slam my head into the desk or ANYTHING but I won't.

And I'm whining, I know. Fuck it. My journal.

Today everything sucks. I'll be okay later.

Comments

[indy-go.livejournal.com]

Yes. It'll be better later.

But I'm sorry it's bad now, love.

*hugs tight*

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

*offers hugs and cookies*

*seriously, about the cookies*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

mmmmmmcookies. That'd make my day better. *g*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

I hate feeling like this. I don't get angry, so this weird crappy impotent RAGE is really pissing me off. So I'm getting angry with myself. *headdesks*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

How about . . .

The Cookie Monster?

Cookie Monster: *looks hopeful* C is for cookie Nny?

(Alphabet magic!)

[villainny.livejournal.com]

...Have now got the Cookie Monster version of Limp Bizkit's Nookie in my head.

*headdesks*

OUT, DEMON!

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

Shhhh. Yes, things will be better. I promise.

{{{{{nny}}}}}

You can come hide, if you like. I've got chocolate and chex mix and lots of blankets.

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHAHAHA.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

-Yrs. sincerely,

The Opera Ghost!!!!!

This is all.

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

I did it all for the cooookie, the cooooookie


mmmmmmmmmmmmcoookeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[indy-go.livejournal.com]

I know how that feels. Just don't let it eat you up inside, okay? Vent to us. That's good. :)

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

Well, you have two choices.

I can give you cyber cookies - I have them, two different flavors, with pictures and everything. White Chocolate Remus Cookies, and Chocolate Chip Spike Cookies (as in Buffyverse).


... Or you can, if you decide you trust me, email me your address (lunziek at gmail.com), and you will be added to the list of people who are getting pfefferneuses from me this holiday season. There's quite a few of them so far, actually, but the first batch SHOULD be started this afternoon.

Your call.

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

*quietly dies, and loves you, and isn't the one with Esme in the bar, of course not...*

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I have sent you my address, but I confess I'm also intrigued by the Remus cookies...

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

The others... will reach you when they can.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Hee!

Oh man, these made me feel better, definitely. Thankee kindly.

And now? Lunch time.

It's nearly 3pm. Why is there no word for a combined lunch-tea? Lea is kinda lame, and I'm so not calling it tench 'cos that's my lecturer and that thought leads wrong and immoral places. *g*

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

...

*considers*

*goes afk to ask mother, who is a librarian, and might possibly know these things*


>.>
<.<
*is glad the WCRC made you happy; also has an icon for them if you like*

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

Grr. Mother has no suggestions other than sticking with just "tea" or "lunch with tea," which really is just useless, isn't it, because you would have gone with it already.

Technically, you probably OUGHT to call it "late lunch with tea" or something... but that's no fun.

Since you are apparently the first person to want a name for it, I think that means you get to name it. ;)

[sophistry]

Afternoon tea, you twat. XD

[tropes.livejournal.com]

:-*

loff.

[ygrane.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[vimeslady.livejournal.com]

I know so well what this feels like, the procrastination, and hating one's self because of it, and everything in life seeming to be fucked up. I wish I knew how to make you feel better. Everyone keeps telling me not to be so hard on myself, but it's not easy to stop. But I'm glad you're posting, because the act of venting and the support I get here on LJ is one of the biggest things that keep me going.

**HUGS**

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

*calls to the pineapple yellow side of the Force*

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

*runs away in terror from the yellow*

[lurvesnape.livejournal.com]

would you like chocolate, or a pillow to whack? or both? *hugs*

[vivien]

Ahem, I'm 34 and still RPing when I have TOO MUCH TO DO (re: meltdown of last night on my own LJ) - I think it's end of term, impending holiday wackiness getting under all of our skins.

However I will scold you for the doctor thing - I have asthma, too, and I know how very miserable it can make you feel (and, um, how fatal it can be). Trying to keep enough air in your lungs to survive takes up way too much energy - I've been there and done that. Go see the doc - don't ask just for an inhaler, ask for a corticosteroid like Pulmocort or Qvar to manage the asthma as well as the emergency inhaler. Then when you're breathing better, I bet you'll be able to deal better.

Um, yes, I am a mother hen. Just ask Lynette ;)