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Dec. 3rd, 2004 02:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyI am in a Really Sucky Mood.
My financial and educational situations are fucked. I'm tired. I'm hungry. I have to babysit on saturday night, which cuts way down on RP time. I shouldn't be RPing ANYWAY because I have SO MUCH TO DO. I'm going to be 22 in a week, and I hate that because it's a PROPER age. I mean, up to 21 you can be an immature twat without people commenting. 22 is an official ADULT age. And I don't want it to be my birthday because I know, as a day, it's going to suck, and I haven't the time to organise anything, and I don't WANT to organise anything because it would be a disappointment in any case. And my room's a mess and it's distracting me but I can't tidy it because I KNOW it's a procrastination technique and I haven't the time to procrastinate but hell what the fuck else is this? And I nearly killed myself with asthma last night but have I gone to the doctor to get an inhaler? No. That would involve registering at a doctor. Am I an idiot? Yes. I'm self destructive. I make my life hard for myself. I know this. I just... I hate myself. I must. I'm not as hard on anyone else in the entire universe as I am on myself.
I'm full of random rage and I want to hit things or fling this keyboard across the room or slam my head into the desk or ANYTHING but I won't.
And I'm whining, I know. Fuck it. My journal.
Today everything sucks. I'll be okay later.
My financial and educational situations are fucked. I'm tired. I'm hungry. I have to babysit on saturday night, which cuts way down on RP time. I shouldn't be RPing ANYWAY because I have SO MUCH TO DO. I'm going to be 22 in a week, and I hate that because it's a PROPER age. I mean, up to 21 you can be an immature twat without people commenting. 22 is an official ADULT age. And I don't want it to be my birthday because I know, as a day, it's going to suck, and I haven't the time to organise anything, and I don't WANT to organise anything because it would be a disappointment in any case. And my room's a mess and it's distracting me but I can't tidy it because I KNOW it's a procrastination technique and I haven't the time to procrastinate but hell what the fuck else is this? And I nearly killed myself with asthma last night but have I gone to the doctor to get an inhaler? No. That would involve registering at a doctor. Am I an idiot? Yes. I'm self destructive. I make my life hard for myself. I know this. I just... I hate myself. I must. I'm not as hard on anyone else in the entire universe as I am on myself.
I'm full of random rage and I want to hit things or fling this keyboard across the room or slam my head into the desk or ANYTHING but I won't.
And I'm whining, I know. Fuck it. My journal.
Today everything sucks. I'll be okay later.
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Date: 2004-12-03 02:31 pm (UTC)*headdesks*
OUT, DEMON!
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Date: 2004-12-03 02:33 pm (UTC)AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
-Yrs. sincerely,
The Opera Ghost!!!!!
This is all.
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Date: 2004-12-03 02:33 pm (UTC)mmmmmmmmmmmmcoookeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee