(no subject)
Dec. 30th, 2004 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyThe eternal debate returns again. What to do for New Year? I don't know yet. I'm not quite ready to return to fending for myself, want to take advantage of parental cooking and heating I don't have to pay for for a little bit longer, I think. The options, then:
1. I could go to the town in which I went to college, see one of my best friends and all her friends, her friends who I really don't know, her friends who haven't changed since I was in college and have preconceived notions of who I am which aren't anywhere near who I am any more. I could make an effort, show them me now, but I'll have to drink a lot to work up the courage and then I tend to revert.
2. I could go to London and see my other best friend and people I have never met take too many drugs, while I don't take too many drugs. While I sit and watch them take too many drugs and feel slightly superior while wishing I was having half as much fun as they are. But it still doesn't make me want to take drugs.
The other option? Go and buy a couple of beers and watch bad TV and go on the internet.
Am I pathetic if that seems like the most attractive option?
I'm not good at people. I am exceedingly shy and I have to drink to talk to people. And when I drink I talk utter crap. Anyone who has been on messenger with me when I've been drunk will know this.
I wish I could pretend that it's not important. I wish I could, but I can't. It has become the social event of the season, a time to see and be seen, and if I tell people I stayed at home I'll get pitying looks. And I'm sad enough that I'll care.
Help me decide, here?
ETA: Bitch big sister's gonna be here. On the upside, I can kick her arse. Hmm.
1. I could go to the town in which I went to college, see one of my best friends and all her friends, her friends who I really don't know, her friends who haven't changed since I was in college and have preconceived notions of who I am which aren't anywhere near who I am any more. I could make an effort, show them me now, but I'll have to drink a lot to work up the courage and then I tend to revert.
2. I could go to London and see my other best friend and people I have never met take too many drugs, while I don't take too many drugs. While I sit and watch them take too many drugs and feel slightly superior while wishing I was having half as much fun as they are. But it still doesn't make me want to take drugs.
The other option? Go and buy a couple of beers and watch bad TV and go on the internet.
Am I pathetic if that seems like the most attractive option?
I'm not good at people. I am exceedingly shy and I have to drink to talk to people. And when I drink I talk utter crap. Anyone who has been on messenger with me when I've been drunk will know this.
I wish I could pretend that it's not important. I wish I could, but I can't. It has become the social event of the season, a time to see and be seen, and if I tell people I stayed at home I'll get pitying looks. And I'm sad enough that I'll care.
Help me decide, here?
ETA: Bitch big sister's gonna be here. On the upside, I can kick her arse. Hmm.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 03:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 03:06 am (UTC)If you wanna stay home and drink beer, well that sounds mighty fine to me. If anyone asks? You had a family party and it was great. Cos it probably will be.
I think you're past needing to care about what other people think - you never should have in the first place cos you're wicked.
Do what you think will make YOU happiest and with minimal risk of you ending up feeling shitty and/or not having a good time. It's not that important.
Happy New Year Beth, I hope this is a good one for you.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 02:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 03:46 am (UTC)*hug* Whatever you decide, I hope it turns out okay.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 04:09 am (UTC)Right, so you already know that I'm planning to be online... and I'll probably even be online at your midnight.
So if you're online, you'll get cyber New Year's Eve kisses from me, if you want them.
No tongue, cos Sophie would injure me. ;)
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 04:39 am (UTC)I'm staying at home and getting royally pissed with
We're going to write drabbles. Whilst drunk.
So you see, my New Years is going to be incredibly geeky and huge-party-less. But we'll have fun - and you should do the same. Whatever will make you the happiest.
Tell everyone you had an interesting and infectious one-night disease!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 04:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 05:00 am (UTC)I may end up on a farm, in the middle of noweehre (with people I expect, and assorted ducks etc), but hopefully all will be fun. See you Wednesday. I have so little net acces here, it is rather infuriating. Oh well. Reading lots by warm fires...Victorian party tongiht, woo!
xx
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 05:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 05:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:06 am (UTC)Bugger it. I can kick her ass, if it comes to it.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:14 am (UTC)Sophie I'm getting new character cravings! WHAT DO I DO?!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:58 am (UTC)The. (http://www.paulbettany.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=22&pos=23)
Time. (http://www.paulbettany.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=23&pos=9)
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:08 am (UTC)*smug*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:04 am (UTC)Later, lovely, I'm about to be late!
*scrambles off*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:02 am (UTC)Have I convinced you yet?
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 11:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 01:10 pm (UTC)NOOOOOOOO!
OMG SO WANT TO!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:17 am (UTC)*he says, having just missed his flight for his portion of New Year fun and now has to get up, or stay up till 4:30 am tomorrow because he's such a fucktard*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:24 am (UTC)*looks guilty and points to own journal (http://www.livejournal.com/users/sir_gareth/86423.html)*
Two guesses as to why I overslept. And the first one doesn't count.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:50 am (UTC)and ICONLOVE!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:54 am (UTC)I'm bringing out loads of my old icons, because I have fifty spaces and not nearly enough icons. Fifty spaces for Aziraphael, too, dammit. My life is so HARD.
And it would be AMAZING if you were online!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:56 am (UTC)*seconds this*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:02 am (UTC)And EEE am going to be late, aren't I? Must dash! Catch ya later, though. *mwah*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 08:15 am (UTC)Personally, I'm staying home with family, alcohol, illegal fireworks, and online friends.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 11:07 am (UTC)(Personally, my mother is ordering us wings. I will stay out in the living room for as short a time as I can get away with and then escape into my room, where the computer is. And! Where it is warmer. Yay warmth.)
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 12:58 pm (UTC)Have fun whatever you do :)
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 05:03 pm (UTC)And Happy New Year from 8 time zones to the west! Thanks for all your parts in Milliways -- I do not dare sign up for the crack, but watching is GOOD.
P.S. People get easier with time and practice. Give yourself time, and pick good folks to practice with!