(no subject)
Dec. 30th, 2004 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nnyThe eternal debate returns again. What to do for New Year? I don't know yet. I'm not quite ready to return to fending for myself, want to take advantage of parental cooking and heating I don't have to pay for for a little bit longer, I think. The options, then:
1. I could go to the town in which I went to college, see one of my best friends and all her friends, her friends who I really don't know, her friends who haven't changed since I was in college and have preconceived notions of who I am which aren't anywhere near who I am any more. I could make an effort, show them me now, but I'll have to drink a lot to work up the courage and then I tend to revert.
2. I could go to London and see my other best friend and people I have never met take too many drugs, while I don't take too many drugs. While I sit and watch them take too many drugs and feel slightly superior while wishing I was having half as much fun as they are. But it still doesn't make me want to take drugs.
The other option? Go and buy a couple of beers and watch bad TV and go on the internet.
Am I pathetic if that seems like the most attractive option?
I'm not good at people. I am exceedingly shy and I have to drink to talk to people. And when I drink I talk utter crap. Anyone who has been on messenger with me when I've been drunk will know this.
I wish I could pretend that it's not important. I wish I could, but I can't. It has become the social event of the season, a time to see and be seen, and if I tell people I stayed at home I'll get pitying looks. And I'm sad enough that I'll care.
Help me decide, here?
ETA: Bitch big sister's gonna be here. On the upside, I can kick her arse. Hmm.
1. I could go to the town in which I went to college, see one of my best friends and all her friends, her friends who I really don't know, her friends who haven't changed since I was in college and have preconceived notions of who I am which aren't anywhere near who I am any more. I could make an effort, show them me now, but I'll have to drink a lot to work up the courage and then I tend to revert.
2. I could go to London and see my other best friend and people I have never met take too many drugs, while I don't take too many drugs. While I sit and watch them take too many drugs and feel slightly superior while wishing I was having half as much fun as they are. But it still doesn't make me want to take drugs.
The other option? Go and buy a couple of beers and watch bad TV and go on the internet.
Am I pathetic if that seems like the most attractive option?
I'm not good at people. I am exceedingly shy and I have to drink to talk to people. And when I drink I talk utter crap. Anyone who has been on messenger with me when I've been drunk will know this.
I wish I could pretend that it's not important. I wish I could, but I can't. It has become the social event of the season, a time to see and be seen, and if I tell people I stayed at home I'll get pitying looks. And I'm sad enough that I'll care.
Help me decide, here?
ETA: Bitch big sister's gonna be here. On the upside, I can kick her arse. Hmm.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:06 am (UTC)Bugger it. I can kick her ass, if it comes to it.
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:14 am (UTC)Sophie I'm getting new character cravings! WHAT DO I DO?!
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 06:58 am (UTC)The. (http://www.paulbettany.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=22&pos=23)
Time. (http://www.paulbettany.net/gallery/displayimage.php?album=23&pos=9)
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:08 am (UTC)*smug*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:04 am (UTC)Later, lovely, I'm about to be late!
*scrambles off*
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 07:02 am (UTC)Have I convinced you yet?
no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 11:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-30 01:10 pm (UTC)NOOOOOOOO!
OMG SO WANT TO!