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[nny]

It's so weird that I spend so much time wanting to go home, when I'm miserable more often here than anywhere else. And I'm made to feel guilty because I allow myself to get upset. Because I'm undermining the family my mum's been trying to build all these years. How? By being nice? By being easy to bully?

I want to go home and I don't even know where that fucking is anymore.

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[dramaturgca.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

Home is where the people who love you, who you love back, are.

So... my home is apparently someone's dorm room halfway across the USA. Kinda sucks.

Maybe your family's home isn't your home.

That's okay, though.

And in the meantime - well, you've got us. And most of us aren't so bad, really.

*more hugs, gives you tea*

[sophistry]

You were talking about staying where you're living now once uni is done, and working, but maybe the thing to do is to find another place, somewhere close by the first. I mean, the family home clearly doesn't seem to be the best place for you to spend time, and uni!home I have a feeling you associate with a lot of the stresses and Bad Places you've been to over the past while. So perhaps if you could stay within range of the same people and places, but with new immediate environs...

Fukkit, I've not a clue what I'm on about.

[ygrane.livejournal.com]

No, actually these are good ideas. Same location, different scene.

*big tight hugs to Nny*

[parke-matru.livejournal.com]

*snugs tight*

I know exactly where you're coming from.

[indy-go.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Being neither here nor there is a hard place to be. It's the way it is, a lot of the time, for people our age. And I know it's not terribly comforting, except in the realization that you're not the only one who feels that way, and that this is not forever. You'll find your place.

[chains-of-irony.livejournal.com]

What they said. I'm not at uni until October, but lots of people I know who are there already seem to feel the same way. Chin up? *clings*