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[nny]

Have just made appointments to talk to tutor and someone creative writing-y to talk about maybe doing an MA. Why? I don't know. I don't know that I can justify this to myself because it's something I want to do and I've been such a scholastic fuck-up for such a long time that I don't feel like I should allow myself this. I don't deserve to have got so far in the educational system, not a chance. I've got through mostly by luck and a talent at bullshit. I am master of doing least possible work to get through. I chose the wrong course, admittedly - the effort I put into things that interest me makes me furious with myself for not changing course before it got this far. I don't know what to do.

What the hell would I do with a creative writing MA, in any case?

What if this just proves I'm Not Good Enough? What then? It's one of those things I'd rather just suspect than have proved.

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[ygrane.livejournal.com]

Shush and sign up for the creative writing MA before I spork you.

[ajodasso.livejournal.com]

Once, I vaguely considered doing grad work in CW instead of something academic, and my writing professor at the time, of all people, pointed out to me that most published fiction writers did not, in fact, do grad work in CW, and it would actually be a waste of my time. She was speaking from the standpoint that she hadn't even done her masters in CW, yet had still managed to get a publishing contract and even the teaching position. I honestly don't know what the pros and cons of such a degree are, but I know I've been left with this impression that it's actually superfluous when it comes down to it. Just like a lot of other degrees these days, probably. It seems as if almost nobody ends up doing what they trained to do.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

That's the thing, though - I'm not doing this with an eye to get published. I don't think I can, and it's not what I plan to do with my life. This is more... another year in which I don't have to come up with a plan. I think a Masters would probably look pretty good on CV. And it would interest me.

[ajodasso.livejournal.com]

From the standpoint of training and gaining experience, then, it could be a very good thing. Also, talk to a lot of writing profs and see how they got there. There's nothing more interesting than how mind-bogglnig the Point-A-to-Point-B stories are. It's enough to make you go mad as a student.

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

DOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

*envies fiercely*

DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT.

Because you are good enough and all it will prove is whether you enjoy it enough to make a living at it. BECAUSE YOU COULD.

STFU YOU TOTALLY COULD.

So, in conclusion, do it. And if you end up unhappy you can blame me. :D

do it.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

HEE!

I miss you. Terribly.

*glares at teh internets*

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

I miss you too! I came online this morning expressly to find you. >:D

[villainny.livejournal.com]

Am on YM express thing for a little while. :)

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

Alas, I missed you. I'll be online all evening and most of tomorrow, though, so you should be able to catch me at some point :D

[villainny.livejournal.com]

PS someone's computer is making a noise like a vibrator.





...I REALLY HOPE.

[copperbadge.livejournal.com]

Which reminds me, would you like a plush vibrating sheep?

[unravels.livejournal.com]

Please forgive the drive-by commenting, but I wanted to tell you that my closest friend in the world recently did an MA in creative writing at the U of Cardiff, and has yet to perish in the attempt. Well, okay, there were some close calls. :) But parts of your entry are like reading one of her emails all over again, and I'm sure she would tell you to go for it.

I had to make a similar decision a couple of years ago - I'm sure I'll be paying off that student loan forEVER, but I haven't regretted doing it for a second. Anyway. Yes, enough with the testimonials, because if I really get going I won't stop. Good luck - I hope it works out for you.

[lunar-echo.livejournal.com]

Hey hun,

I have library net access for an hour or so this week at least...I hope the meeting went ok. Do let me know. Perhaps you could take it on to teach creative writing? I think I recall a demand for such...

As for NTL, could you please text me my account number and if its on the letter - the 0800 helpline, or email it as I can check tomorrow sometime. I can call from my Mother's, if you don't get chance there. Let me know.

Take care, hope the house isn't being too creaky & weird...
xx