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Jun. 19th, 2005 11:47 amI will say things are okay, if you talk to me.
I cannot say when things are not okay but things are not okay.
I have a tendency to switch things around so we're talking about something else. And if I respond to comments on this post (should there be any) I will say oh, don't worry, I was flaily, it's okay.
It's really kinda not.
I think me and Ferret aren't gonna be friends any more. And I don't know how to deal with that. So my last act, as a friend, is going to be to write her a letter that I really hope will help. But I know she's going to hate me for it, because it won't be easy to read.
Is it still worth doing then? I don't know. I think so.
I think the friendship is done, at this point.
So I guess my last act, as her friend, is to try and give her some advice that should help. Because she CAN'T be seventeen forever. And I can't be seventeen with her. I was fucking miserable, at seventeen. I moved on for a reason.
And making yourself crazy is not cool.
I cannot say when things are not okay but things are not okay.
I have a tendency to switch things around so we're talking about something else. And if I respond to comments on this post (should there be any) I will say oh, don't worry, I was flaily, it's okay.
It's really kinda not.
I think me and Ferret aren't gonna be friends any more. And I don't know how to deal with that. So my last act, as a friend, is going to be to write her a letter that I really hope will help. But I know she's going to hate me for it, because it won't be easy to read.
Is it still worth doing then? I don't know. I think so.
I think the friendship is done, at this point.
So I guess my last act, as her friend, is to try and give her some advice that should help. Because she CAN'T be seventeen forever. And I can't be seventeen with her. I was fucking miserable, at seventeen. I moved on for a reason.
And making yourself crazy is not cool.
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Date: 2005-06-21 01:11 am (UTC)I love you.