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[nny]

I'll be fine, is the thing, once things get started. Once we swap my bed for the one it's possible to sleep on. When I have to think about my A-level and applying to university (oh god I sound 18 again) and my new job, when there are things and people. 'cos right now it's just me and my mum and I keep involuntarily gritting my teeth when I'm trying to sleep because I'm so frustrated. Because I can't do anything.

I should be tidying my room or reading or writing or working out the million and one things about Aziraphael that really need to be worked out, but I'm not. I'm faffing around and reading fic and playing the sims. (Dan and Casey have moved in together already).

I'm driving myself mad. And I was just so spoiled in America and I fell too much in love with having all the fantastic people there, 'cos now I'm just lonely.

I shouldn't be allowed near LJ in this sort of mood. Sorry. I'll figure out something more interesting to say later.

Comments

[unravels.livejournal.com]

Okay, totally unsolicited suggestion here, but take it or leave it. :) Maybe it's the fact that you feel like you have so much to do that's hurting you. Make it a holiday from responsibility, enjoy hanging out with your mom (maybe in short bursts, if necessary ;) ). Faff, read fic, play Sims. It might help all the half-formed ideas in your head congeal a little bit. I have that same sort of frustration when I have free time - all the stuff I ought to be doing - no, stuff that I really, really want to do and never usually have time for. But if I force myself it's neither enjoyable nor any good, generally speaking. I'm not satisfied with it, anyway. The best bursts of creativity tend to hit me after midnight when I've got something of 'real' importance half finished and I have to be at work at 6. :P And those times will come again for you, I have no doubt.

I miss everybody too. :/ Will see you again soon, though - one way or another.

[villainny.livejournal.com]

I'm terrified that this is going to be the year. I don't know if I can cope.

God, I wish you lived closer. :)?

[dramawench.livejournal.com]

I don't have much advice to offer but to suggest simply soldiering on. I am firmly in the camp of when forced with myriad things that need doing, I retreat right to books, tv or the internet. Even when I know I'm doing it, I can't help it, but go read and have guilt stewing in my gut the whole while.

*massive hugs*
This is all to say that I know how you are feeling. Sometimes it helps just to focus on one thing, a small thing, and get that finished. It helps get me motivated and gives me confidence that the entire heap isn't as impossible or daunting.

[mm_madb]

I totally bet we could set you up in my closet. *eyes it* Its like a whole other room. A bed could even fit in there. Or a cot and a computer table, whatever.

I miss you all!

[illmantrim.livejournal.com]

There is like a huge sofa thing in a nook with a table and all and... yeah, prolly not what you had in mind.

Er... I hoipe things settle for you. Life can be pretty crazy right now, and it is for me, but I know you will find a way through.

[vimeslady.livejournal.com]

Actually I think that when you're lonely is the best time to be on LJ. 'Cause you know there are people here that care about you.