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I'll be fine, is the thing, once things get started. Once we swap my bed for the one it's possible to sleep on. When I have to think about my A-level and applying to university (oh god I sound 18 again) and my new job, when there are things and people. 'cos right now it's just me and my mum and I keep involuntarily gritting my teeth when I'm trying to sleep because I'm so frustrated. Because I can't do anything.

I should be tidying my room or reading or writing or working out the million and one things about Aziraphael that really need to be worked out, but I'm not. I'm faffing around and reading fic and playing the sims. (Dan and Casey have moved in together already).

I'm driving myself mad. And I was just so spoiled in America and I fell too much in love with having all the fantastic people there, 'cos now I'm just lonely.

I shouldn't be allowed near LJ in this sort of mood. Sorry. I'll figure out something more interesting to say later.

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[dramawench.livejournal.com]

I don't have much advice to offer but to suggest simply soldiering on. I am firmly in the camp of when forced with myriad things that need doing, I retreat right to books, tv or the internet. Even when I know I'm doing it, I can't help it, but go read and have guilt stewing in my gut the whole while.

*massive hugs*
This is all to say that I know how you are feeling. Sometimes it helps just to focus on one thing, a small thing, and get that finished. It helps get me motivated and gives me confidence that the entire heap isn't as impossible or daunting.